Routine is what I like. Routine is comfortable. Routine is known. Routine is easy. Routine is regular. Routine is what I like. Lately the Lord is calling me to some new areas, and I've had trouble embracing and accepting the new.
"Behold, I will do something new, now it will spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert." Isaiah 43:19
As a creature of habit, I always like to sit on same end seat of the same red leather couch that is in our small group room on Sunday mornings. We meet in a cozy fireside room furnished by a local furniture company with some ultra comfortable seating. For years I've sat in that same spot. Two weeks ago when I walked into the room, there was a blue leather chair where the red leather couch has always been. Now, that may not be a big deal for you; but for me, I wasn't sure what to do. I always sat in the same spot and if I moved to another sofa, that might be a spot a friend usually sits in. Eventually I did slowly walk toward the new chair and deposited my coat and passed by to hug a friend in small group (secretly hoping that maybe when I turned around my red leather couch will be back in it's place.) No, it did not move. So I joined my coat and hesitatingly sat down in the blue leather chair. I had a hard time focusing because mentally I was making a list of why I did not like this new chair:
It was new to me.
I like my red leather couch.
It is a chair, not a couch.
There was no room for all my family and loved ones in this chair.
I like the red couch.
I know the comfort of the red couch.
I was not comfortable.
I do not like change.
Last week I was thrilled to see the red couch back in it's spot and I sat down quite quickly. Oh so pleased that I was back into my routine of the right seat, at the right place, at the right time. Just as I like it. But, something was not right. You know that feeling the Lord allows when He is calling you to something new and you choose the safe, the known, the same old thing that you've always been doing?
The Lord and I had church right there on that red couch before the class even got around the room to finish our prayer requests. Yes, I was back on the comfortable red couch. The comfortable red couch that I've always chosen as my seat. The comfortable red couch that allows me to sit with others that are my friends and loved ones. But in my heart, I know God is calling me to some new things. Without a doubt, He moved us to a new area. He is at work in our family. He is calling me to do some new things for Him. Areas where I do not feel comfortable. Areas where I feel that I am alone; but I'm not - He is always with me. And I can't go back to the same old red couch and be comfortable when He is calling me to the new, the blue, the Faithful, the true.
Lord, I think I get the visual now
It's taken me so long and I've furrowed my brow
Hesitant I've been at the thought of trying something new
But Lord, I want to do what You alone call me to do
Help me Lord to get off the comfort of the red couch
And as I stand to take Your courage, help me not to slouch
I want to do whatever new You call me to
I know that You are faithful, loyal, true blue
Help me Lord to not hedge my life with comfort and routine
But be willing to walk by faith and follow You, though unseen
Knowing that with You Lord, I'm never alone
You'll lead me and guide me till You call me home.
In the Precious, Holy Name of the Eternal King, Amen.